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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 02:01:50 GMT

"Unintended"

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 06:54:17 GMT

Baby's new toy...S2000HD!! Taken using Sony T90 *heart*

Botanical Gardens~

Photographer at work!

Swan at the Swan Lake....

Camwhore abit...

Gerger!

Look at the squirrel!

I love the camera!!! ^______^ thanks baby ^______^

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 23:30:46 GMT

In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED
and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship.

There is always another person (man or woman) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT.

And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship. But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT
But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.

Be careful in deciding between! what you WANT and NEED in your life.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. "Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my SPOUSE IS NOT"

Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 20%.

Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature. You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says: "I broke my arm yesterday, Hahahaha . . .."

Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt

Or because your husband is the quiet type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.

But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.

Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!

Quite true arh!

Cooked spaghetti for danna yesterday..Not bad! haha.. Luckily finish..never waste food =D

Bored. Can't go swimming zzz it's been raining a lot nowadays =(

Bangkok bangkok bangkok bangkok bangkok
September holidays ^__________^

Monday, June 29, 2009

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 14:14:07 GMT

What I've been doing for the past 3 weeks:
- desperately tried to learn to swim. Now that school has started, I can't get my lazy arse up early on Mondays to go swimming.
- emo-ed a lot. Maybe "a lot" is an understatement. =/
- sat at the void deck late at night a lot. Even brought my guitar down once and sang "You'll always be my baby". Nutcase ~__~
- did very little programming. (I'm so sorry Mr Gary and group mates! I've been making quite some progress this week though ^__^)
- spent at least like $60? on cab fare wtf. ~__~ broke.
- missed home so much I felt like crying every time I called back. =(((
- had ups and downs. Major ones.

random random random I have a fruit tart in the fridge ^__^

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 15:33:21 GMT

How I wish I could just shut this blog away from some people who I don't want to reveal myself to.. This is something personal, just for me and my close ones to read.. But I'm being a hypocrite, because if I really bothered, I could do just that, yet I didn't; maybe a part of me is attention-seeking, bah! What a dilemma! I guess it's quite safe to say most of us have that side? =/

Last week was the first week of term 2, after 2 whole weeks of holidays.. I still went to school during the holidays, still went to NUH every Saturday without fail.. It's exhausting. It's not funny when you have to work on a software from Monday to Friday and for another separate project on Saturdays. It's physically and mentally exhausting. I feel isolated from the world, from my friends and loved ones. A pile of clothing waiting to be ironed greets me everyday; i feel so ashamed of myself. My room is in a mess; does it reflect my life too?

I have so many bottled up frustrations in me but I just can't put it into words. Staring at this blinking line, typing some and then erasing them again; I end up writing nothing.

As I sat on the window, with my legs dangling freely, the cool breeze caressing my skin, I thought through my options. Was I to take the easy way out? Leaving everything in a mess as it is now, leaving sorrow and sadness to those who cared.. A selfish part of me wanted to leave the mess for someone else, cause sorrow, regret and guilt for others..I never did; the fear of death was too overwhelming for me. I felt like a coward, running away from my problems, furiously occupying myself to avoid what's been bothering me the most..

It scares me that I could forgive the verbal abuse; perhaps I felt that I deserved that or that the love I have for you made me do so? I dare not demand much; I'm a dreamer but who knows about my dreams? Who knows about my loneliness, four empty walls greeting me when I come "home". I'm far away from home, far away from the comfort of being in a family.. Who knows about my endless worries and responsibilities?

I'm happy now, being with you feels like it completes me.. Do you feel the same way too? I smile stupidly at the littlest of gestures; a short mesage, holding hands, building an extra PC so that I won't feel bored.. I remember many things, just that I keep quiet most of the time.. It's not that I forget or I didn't notice, it's just that I never did say it out..

Aishiteru

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Sun, 17 May 2009 14:56:00 GMT

I want I want I want (for the millionth time) =( I want!

Nice? Me likey! =D xFoooooong should i get this?? =D

Bored. MP is fun but draining. Mon - Fri at school, Saturdays at NUH. Saturdays are especially fun! =D Presentation on Monday for the NUH peeps about APD and P300!

And please stop imitating the way I speak. It's disgusting. And fake. And disgusting =/. I hate people who pretend to do everything and then after that blames their team member for not contributing. And lets the poor dude do all the "sai kang" (shitty work). Oh please.

I love Subway! =]

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Wed, 06 May 2009 13:25:45 GMT

Gerger gave birth to 3 babies! omggggsssss haha i'm so anxious cause the last time she gave birth, all the babies died cause she never feed them! =((((

She's so cute cause she gathered lots of food in the bath sand bowl and then piled pieces of tissue on it and gave birth there! And she sleeps there with the babies in the bowl! When I went to peek just now, Boiboi was in the bowl too wtf haha

So many farnee things happened today..
1) We were talking crap in front of the Western Food stall and then I mentioned about man boobs. The guy queue-ing there stared at me. FML
2) Rathi Ash and I walked past this Indian guy and he had body odour!!! The moment he walked past me I said "OMG he smells..............BAD!" hahaha
3) There was this earthworm in my terrarium which now houses my new cactus! Cause the old plant died. =/ And I spent most of the day staring at the damn worm. *dig dig dig*

End of week1 of MP

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:10:08 GMT

weeee i love my DU (Diploma Unit)!!! haha Kiwi is there, Rathi Ash too! And it's so comfy and spacious and I get to put all my dumplings there (Mr. Chua never said a ting >< hehe) !!

Been learning MATLAB! Like wtf lo, CKTSIG only tried it once... I'm so totally more comfortable with Java / C language.. And I've been talking to a PLANT! hahaha!

And xF!! I bought the F21 dress hahaha!!!! hehehe!!!

I'll be going to NUH on Monday and Tuesday for training...>_< alone! So scared lah!!! Don't know what to wear oso... haih the stupid covered shoes left me with blisters everywhere!!

AND AND AND yufei is helping me to get my dream bag woo hoo hehehe so happy can! =DDDD

i love my MP, my supervisor (Mr. Gary!!! =DDDD), my group mates (hehe i feel like i always bully them) and my DU!!!!

T____T

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 01:41:14 GMT

It's OOS on forever21.com!!! T___T xFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF i regrettttttttttttttt T__T

me want me want me wantttttttttt T_T

terrarium!

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 09:04:34 GMT

Yup! I went for an introductory class for terrarium! Its so cool and cheap! I shall show off my work!

Less is more ok! Looks nicer than everything being cramp-ed up! lols *self comfort wuwuwu*

This is Boiboi (say hi! *waves* omg I'm so retarded wuwuwu)

Boiboi&Gerger are at danna's place wuwuwu I miss them so much wuwuwu T_T Fluffy soft furballs T_T Mummy's going back to KL and not gonna see you two for a while wuwuwu. Don't miss me okays lol I love you deep deep! =.=

xF say she's gonna treat me to Sushi King YAY! hahaha! super looking forward to going back now hahaha!

I regret the times that I've been such an asshole to my secondary school teachers
I regret the days and weeks and months I've wasted away doing nothing productive
I regret not doing my best for SPM and screwing up my future
I regret doing things without really thinking it through
I hate that I'm so fickle-minded
I hate that I find it so hard to tell people I care about how much I love them

But I'm happy that I did the things that I did
They made me who I am today
I'm glad to have met danna
Glad that I got into TP even though I missed the application date by a month (or more =p)
Glad that I moved outta my cousin's place
Glad to have gotten into BIE
Proud that I've stood strong despite going through shit
Suprised that I can make friends in school (I'm very unpopular haha!)
Lucky to have found like-minded people to do MP together

And very fortunate to have people like my grandmother, xF and danna in my life =D

weee!