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| "Unintended"
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you
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| In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED
and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship.
There is always another person (man or woman) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT.
And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship. But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT
But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.
Be careful in deciding between! what you WANT and NEED in your life.
Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. "Wow, this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my SPOUSE IS NOT"
Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.
Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wife looks for the missing 20%.
Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature. You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh no matter what she says: "I broke my arm yesterday, Hahahaha . . .."
Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt
Or because your husband is the quiet type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has the makings of a talk show host.
But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.
Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!
Quite true arh!
Cooked spaghetti for danna yesterday..Not bad! haha.. Luckily finish..never waste food =D
Bored. Can't go swimming zzz it's been raining a lot nowadays =(
Bangkok bangkok bangkok bangkok bangkok
September holidays ^__________^
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| What I've been doing for the past 3 weeks:
- desperately tried to learn to swim. Now that school has started, I can't get my lazy arse up early on Mondays to go swimming.
- emo-ed a lot. Maybe "a lot" is an understatement. =/
- sat at the void deck late at night a lot. Even brought my guitar down once and sang "You'll always be my baby". Nutcase ~__~
- did very little programming. (I'm so sorry Mr Gary and group mates! I've been making quite some progress this week though ^__^)
- spent at least like $60? on cab fare wtf. ~__~ broke.
- missed home so much I felt like crying every time I called back. =(((
- had ups and downs. Major ones.
random random random I have a fruit tart in the fridge ^__^
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| How I wish I could just shut this blog away from some people who I don't want to reveal myself to.. This is something personal, just for me and my close ones to read.. But I'm being a hypocrite, because if I really bothered, I could do just that, yet I didn't; maybe a part of me is attention-seeking, bah! What a dilemma! I guess it's quite safe to say most of us have that side? =/
Last week was the first week of term 2, after 2 whole weeks of holidays.. I still went to school during the holidays, still went to NUH every Saturday without fail.. It's exhausting. It's not funny when you have to work on a software from Monday to Friday and for another separate project on Saturdays. It's physically and mentally exhausting. I feel isolated from the world, from my friends and loved ones. A pile of clothing waiting to be ironed greets me everyday; i feel so ashamed of myself. My room is in a mess; does it reflect my life too?
I have so many bottled up frustrations in me but I just can't put it into words. Staring at this blinking line, typing some and then erasing them again; I end up writing nothing.
As I sat on the window, with my legs dangling freely, the cool breeze caressing my skin, I thought through my options. Was I to take the easy way out? Leaving everything in a mess as it is now, leaving sorrow and sadness to those who cared.. A selfish part of me wanted to leave the mess for someone else, cause sorrow, regret and guilt for others..I never did; the fear of death was too overwhelming for me. I felt like a coward, running away from my problems, furiously occupying myself to avoid what's been bothering me the most..
It scares me that I could forgive the verbal abuse; perhaps I felt that I deserved that or that the love I have for you made me do so? I dare not demand much; I'm a dreamer but who knows about my dreams? Who knows about my loneliness, four empty walls greeting me when I come "home". I'm far away from home, far away from the comfort of being in a family.. Who knows about my endless worries and responsibilities?
I'm happy now, being with you feels like it completes me.. Do you feel the same way too? I smile stupidly at the littlest of gestures; a short mesage, holding hands, building an extra PC so that I won't feel bored.. I remember many things, just that I keep quiet most of the time.. It's not that I forget or I didn't notice, it's just that I never did say it out..
Aishiteru
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